I haven’t been posting much on this blog lately. I haven’t been writing much away from this blog lately either. My writing, like my energy, has been coming in fits and starts, bursting then rapidly fizzling out like a sparkler. I have been feeling really lost over the last month or so. It has been a lonely and confusing time. Nothing is really wrong, but nothing seems quite right either. I was speaking with a friend yesterday and when I asked him how things were going he replied that nothing was wrong but that he was feeling adrift. I sighed a little sigh of relief, not that he is feeling adrift, but that I am not alone. I am not the only one feeling lost or adrift in the sea of life right now. I was reminded of something very important…no one is alone.
Not that long ago I had a new yoga student come to me after class with a question. As she was asking me her question one of my regular students came up to us and said, “I experience the exact same thing. I thought it was just me.” The two women were able to share their experiences and understand that what was happening was not abnormal. In sharing their stories with each other their sense of fear surrounding what was occurring also diminished. They were not alone.
While all of us are unique, at our core we are all the same. It can be hard to remember this during rough times. It seems appropriate to point out that yoga literally means union, not just with the self, but with others. We are all interconnected. We are, if you want to get really deep with it, one (even in our icky moments). I had been feeling very alone, lonely even when surrounded by people I love, because of feeling lost in my life, my life that has nothing intrinsically wrong with it at the moment. The two women in my yoga class had been feeling alone and as if there were something wrong with them because of what they were experiencing. For all of us, being able to connect with someone feeling the same way lifted the burden of feeling alone. It can feel easier, safer even, to keep quiet about the scarier, darker, messier parts of our experiences and ourselves, but that just perpetuates the feeling of isolation. It is only by opening up that we can truly connect and begin to understand that we are not alone.