Quarantine Diary – Day 57

May 18, 2020 – Day 57 of Quarantine

My mind grasps at familiar habits by trying to plan for the future. More than ever it just feels like trying to hold water in a fist. I begin pondering big changes. Is this the time with everything so in flux and unknown? Is this the wrong time for precisely the same reasons? I have been pondering shifts for quite some time, but as my mind frantically runs in its hamster wheel getting absolutely nowhere I can’t help wondering if I am simply trying to run away from the discomfort of the present.

The pots and soil I ordered last week arrived in the afternoon so I busied myself with planting tomato seedlings and heads of lettuce. There is something satisfying and grounding about digging my hands into the soil. I talk to the tomato seedlings as I untangle their entwined roots, separating them so they can finally begin growing into their full potential. I wonder what I am unconsciously still wrapped up in that might be preventing me from growing into my fullest potential.

 

Song I’m listening to today:

 

About djunapassman

I teach yoga, write, and edit. I live in a Brooklyn neighborhood that is changing faster than I can, or care to, keep up with. It's basically gentrification at its finest. Manhattan still beckons me to her island a few subways stops away, reminding me of when I lived amongst her daily hustle and bustle.
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